(essay)

“Would you like to live some moment again?”
“Naa.”
“Why?”

“What for? I wouldn’t feel the emotions I had then.”

“They change. They leave impressions about themselves that will change their shape and color through the years. Even taste and smell.”

“Yeah, I remember you saying that the memories of a loving couple about their first meetings have the scent of pink tulips and taste like homemade cool lemonade.”

“Hey, did I tell you about a woman who…?”

Morphia’s question was interrupted by a tearful girl who ran into her room without knocking and stumbled to her knees in front of Morphia and Norman.

“Please help!” the poor girl cried out filling the room with the sound of grief.

Morphia Deriken was known for penetrating people’s memories and taking away the feelings that weigh on the bearer of memories — she “desensitized” the memories. This allowed the carriers — people with memories — to save important moments of their lives without unnecessary emotions and experiences. Most often, those who came to Morphia were those who couldn’t deal with their grief and loss. People who suffered from anger and hatred also asked for help.

No one has brought good memories to her yet. Nicole, the girl who just ran in tears and fell to her knees, was the first.

While Norman, Morphia’s younger brother, brought Nicole a glass of water, Morphia sat down on the floor and calmed her down. When Nicole stopped crying, Morphia explained the process of “desensitizion” to her.

The carrier must close eyes and, speaking out loud the memories Morphia will work on, reproduce them visually in his own head. In the event that the carrier changes his mind about “desensitizion,” Morphia leads the person to the end of the memory, so as not to disrupt the memory in the past and the brain in the current circumstances.

This is what happens when people, seeing themselves from the outside, rethink their behavior and let go of the weight of the feelings that they pulled with them so stubbornly. For example, when Morphia’s granny was left a widow, she couldn’t say goodbye to her beloved for a long time and asked her granddaughter to help her. But seeing how happy she was next to her husband, she couldn’t “desensitize” what gave her the meaning to live.

If the carrier is sure that he or she wants to “desensitize” memories, Morphia touches the thin shell that protects the memory. The shell is like a soap bubble, on which all well-known and undiscovered colors shimmer. With his touch, Morphia absorbs all the colors from it and only a transparent cold membrane remains.

But in case with Nicole something went wrong…